One morning I woke up, and got an email from someone unknown that I kinda knew or seen before. I was invited to get a cup of coffee.
And now why did I had to fall in love?
Looking like an angel, with those eyes so hypnotising. Don't know what came over me. I didn't saw someone more handsome or beautiful than him. Did you think it was a woman? No. It was a man... So young... So mysterious and seductive.
His name was Bobby. With brown hair, athletic and intelligent. Any woman would loose her mind. I told him the first night that looking like that he must have tons of admirers or fans. And I said that everyone loves him. But he didn't believe me.
Clearly I wasn't a good match (was thinking rubbish thoughts)... Because he was sexier and confident. I was flattered that he told me to go to the movies and took my hand.
I love him so much!
Then we went to get cake in a nice place.
Then my phone disappeared after 7 days of going out with him. I knew he had it. But now I don't know anymore and I want him more than the phone. I don't care about the phone anymore!
When I was finally happy and content, my whole world fell apart. Now I must see him. I need to feel his touch and hear his voice. Just wanna tell him "I love you. I want you! Oh my God!"
Rachel said: "Put your hand on my heart. Now my heart belongs to you. Because I fell in love with you."
"I don't want to get hurt. Don't wanna loose you like I lost my last girlfriend. Let's be like brother and sister."
"But Bobby, I really love you. Please let me be the one for you."
You know something? I don't want to feel another touch and to say other name, except his sweet name.
When he kissed me, I was going out of my mind, in a public place. We were looking at gadgets. Bobby was smart but he needed a mentor: that's where I come in.
And I'm gonna continue with the story tomorrow, to let you know what happened.
16 May
"I still love you baby! Now you must read the message. God loves us. If He allows us to be together I'm so grateful. I'm grateful that I've met you! Let me love you. I'm crazy about you. Tell me if you still care. You're wonderful and amazing!! Please God let me be with him, just a while. I'm happiest with him!" comment on Social Media
I've posted comments like that on S.M. because he won't let me send him messages. I don't care...
love has no age, love doesn't end. Why am I not allowed to love someone on this planet?
Maybe I should love God, because He will never let me down and He will never forsake me.
These humans forsake me. Why do they break up?
23 May
"Now I'm listening to a nice song! I still love a man, even if he doesn't want to talk anymore. I'm curious how many years I'm gonna love him. At least we don't fight or argue. He's too young. It's my fault that I like him for intelligence, charm and how he treated me. At least if I tell a love story with unpredictable end... in a novel... maybe I'll forget him. I can't believe he said that I should forgive all. That spell isn't working. Once love at first sight, it will never go away. I wish I knew how to undo it... but being in love is not a spell. It's love." comment on Social Media
Even after telling me through a phone message to forget him, I can't. Even if there should be a love spell to make me forget, to erase my mind, I won't because he is in my heart. Nobody can undo love. Only when we would have live together and won't get along, then we would have broken up.
But like this, when he continues his life, and I'm with one of his friends Mr. Decency (Damian).
Don't know what happened! But you don't know how much influence has that man Bobby over me.
His name means the guild-brother from Runic Swedish. It's a lovely name.
